Malady – House – Thought

Ugh! I drew these last Friday morning, and knew that it couldn’t be good, whatever it was referring to! and I was right.

It became very evident that a “malady” had indeed affected the Home, in the sense of Negative Energy – negative thoughts prevailing.

My husband ended up in a very negative thinking state, that I wasn’t able to cajole him out of, or help him pivot from. It pervaded the entire home, and all I wanted to do was escape!

Thankfully, no one else was home, but it was very tough on me. It only lasted the one day (thank goodness) & the following day, I recognized my mate again 🙂

At the time though, it was as if a big dark cloud had descended over our Home……….nasty.

Lover – Fidelity – Anger

A few days ago, (I think on Thursday) my husband drew these 3 cards from the Gypsy deck.

I remember telling him that someone close to him, someone loyal, was going to be angry about something. He was worried that his business partner, who comes up as the Dog in the Lenormand, might get angry  with him for some reason.

I didn’t think so, as the Lover card would have come after the Anger card if it were directed at him. My guess was that he was going to hear about frustrations/upset from someone he liked; maybe lending a a listening sympathetic ear.

I never would have guessed that the dog/Fidelity card would end up representing ME!

Saturday, I woke up happy, but quickly started having heavy burning sensations in my chest. It was the sensation one would have with Bronchitis. It was so sudden and so fierce, it frightened me; I felt as though I was suffocating.

So, I sort of lost my inner balance, and next thing I knew I was acting out towards my husband, yelling at him! I never do that!!and I lost it with our Boxer when she took too long sniffing outside! I was a perpetual short fuse with everything and everyone. My energy was so spikey, that both computers started acting funny when I went near them – it was not a pleasant day! lol

I ended up being the B*tch!!!  sigh   Fortunately, he knew I wasn’t myself and didn’t take offense 🙂 I guess you could also say that the Lover was loyal through the Anger episode……

Gyspy cards: Ecclesiatic – Judge – Sweetheart

I also wanted to share a Gypsy card draw that I did yesterday, and had wondered about it’s meaning. I found out within  an hour what it was referring to, and was very surprised. Here is what I drew:

I remembered saying off the cuff to my husband, who wondered what the cards meant, that either I was being morally or spiritually judged/criticized, or that I was acting morally superior in some way.

It was all I could think of.

Soon afterwards, we got into a bit of a heated discussion as my husband announced what he planned to do when he got a payout. It was not what we had originally agreed on, and I was a bit disturbed, questioning him on it.

He quickly got defensive about his intention, and at the same time started criticizing me for not agreeing and understanding immediately. He, right off the bat, judged me both spiritually and morally. There was a difference of opinion on what was metaphysically going on with a certain situation; and in trying to defend his position, he attacked my thoughts on it!

 I, the Sweetheart, was on the receiving end of this one.

I suppose that if it were me doing the spiritual judging, my card would have come first. I realised very quickly, that we were never going to agree totally on that situation….& that we would never know for sure what the truth really was-  so I surrendered. The one thing I have learned is to know when to fight for something, and when to pass on it. For now, I pass.

He was shown later that day, by an outsider who is very psychic, just how his actions and words were being taken! so it all came around quickly.

I am really fascinated in how the Gypsy cards are talking to me- they are a very intriguing little deck!

Gift – Fidelity – Unexpected Joy

I wrote a couple of days ago, kind of glibly, about a series of draws that looked like my mate was going to change his ways, and start chasing me!

Well, I’m here to confirm, that a day later, those draws came through in a major way ! lol

The Cold War ended, and love and passion reigned for a day or two… plus lots of grins.

He drew these 3 cards right after the truce:

We both laughed out loud, as we saw these: the Gift from his mate, of intimacy, that brought about some unexpected joy!

I share so many serious draws and readings on my two blogs, that I thought it was important to show the lighter side, even if it’s a bit personal! lol  These cards really work.

My only wish is that the happy feelings etc, would last more than a day or two! Stress kills the fun, that’s for sure.

Kipper~Gypsy~Sibilla…saying similar things again?

Well I ended up with an amusing series of draws this morning.  I kept what I thought of them to myself and chuckled inwardly. I’ll wait to see if they’re pointing to what I think they’re pointing to! lol

Firstly, I drew:

I took this be myself and my husband, and continuing to get closer.

We have had a very strained, stilted week; so it’s kind of nice to see a warming to each other being predicted. I have kept myself pretty separate, being polite, but cool. I’ve been extremely efficient, and helpful with everything, but still distant.

I felt that I was very “wronged” and wasn’t appreciated for all that I did in his absence. It was severe enough for me to have fantasies of winning the lottery and saying “Adios”! lol   not that that’s what I really want…but you know how it can be 🙂

Then I drew these:

Well! looks like temperatures might be heating up, and not in an angry way! lol I haven’t wanted to be close in any way since this latest blow up…I think there might be some charm coming from my mate! Something is definitely changing for the better…if I allow it.

Then there’s this draw:

Now, there are different possibilities for this card draw, for sure! but after the other two, what I saw was the Stanza meaning of intimacy & privacy, relating to the bedroom….it has some spicy, risque meanings…passionate love etc! LOL

Then there’s the Gran Signore which is my husband. And the last card Militare can mean to support, to serve…but my brat mind could only see the the raised gun! Whoa! I’m being as bad as I can be!! lol

Can’t help it…it was the first message I got….someone is going to want some loving…

Now on a more serious note, La Stanza could instead, represent great news and the arrival of financial improvements. The Militare can have a negative side as well, and if it represents that, then it’s describing my husband, the Gran Signore.

It can be a state of deep depression, sadness & helplessness. This would describe him pretty well at the moment; he is dealing like a valiant gladiator, but what we’re dealing with would break most people.

So again, La Stanza is a fantastic card to see here- because it’s a definite indicator of great news and better circumstances. Thank goodness!

Got to keep a sense of humor in the midst of it all!

2 Gypsy card draws: one my husband’s~one my own

I wanted to share my husband’s draw this morning, because it has just manifested. I said to him that it looked like he was going to receive a message either from the con-woman he’s legally embattled with, or hear something about her. Usually when the thief shows up, it has to do with her. I told him it could be an email, or a letter, or fax/phone- but something was coming to our house.

Sure enough, just a short time ago, he received an email from the one of the web host providers that hosts his website that exposes her for the criminal that she is. The woman filed a complaint! never mind that it’s entirely factual- but to try to trip him up, wanted her pictures removed. So now he’s working diligently to provide the information that the company asked for to show he’s justified.

These cards are actually very good at predicting actual events, as I’ve demonstrated on this blog.  I know a lot of my fellow bloggers use the Gypsy cards to understand inner workings, but I’m always happy to get the nitty-gritty, which oracles are famous for!

When I want to understand things from a different level, I’ll pull out the tarot or now, the Pages of Shustah (they’re profound).

At the same time this morning, I drew these cards:

I now see that my 3 cards are related to his. I kept muttering “false hope” over and over, but didn’t get any farther until I understood his draw.

I think that the con-woman is going to have false hope that she’s dealt a crippling blow.  As I’m certain that my husband will present all the documents to the web-hosting people, proving that she’s a crook! We’ve done this dance before….

what a strange life I”m leading at the moment! lol

The Gypsy cards do a bang up job again! The more familiar I get with their language, the more interesting they become to me. I have found them a bit harder to crack than some of the other decks, but my interest is now piqued. Once I have some ‘play money’ again I’m going to purchase Esther Gombor’s book on reading the cards. I know that it will be a great addition to my metaphysical library 🙂

Judge – Hope – Ecclesiastic

I was intrigued that I pulled these 3 cards. I think in this instance, the Judge card actually refers to an actual judge.  The con woman, is trying to appeal the award that was given to my husband. She didn’t make the deadline for handing in her appeal and is hoping for a 30 day extension. The judge could just throw it out! and then there would be no more wriggle room left.

I think this is what the Judge and the Hope card represent. The Hope card is also the belief in providence;     (“omnisciently directing the universe and the affairs of humankind with wise benevolence.”)                                                     We are waiting anxiously for news from the lawyers. We are hoping for good news… The questionable card is Ecclesiastic/or Priest card. On one hand, it might be describing the con-woman who poses as a  spiritual master/guru!! lol or it could represent spiritual freedom and turning to the future. Hoping that we will be blessed with a positive outcome from the judge.

The more I look at these cards, I think it probably sums up very succinctly my thoughts on the subject. I have a strong feeling that the judge will act in accordance to “Divine Will”…that we’re fated to win the battle over the Dark, and be freed.

At least, that’s what I hope!

Kipper and Gypsy draws~

It’s been a strange ride 🙂 I wanted to share a few draws of both mine and my husband’s because they reflected so clearly the state of affairs!

Yesterday, from the Kipper, I drew these:

I can draw cards in front of my mate, and he’ll think it’s about something totally different! lol and I don’t correct him either.

Collect One’s Thoughts – False Deceptive Person – Love and Friendship

These cards immediately said to me that I would be thinking deeply about the untruths & uncharacteristic behavior surrounding my relationship right now. How to go forward, and to focus on what I really wanted for an outcome. It’s the way I did spend my day yesterday.

Husband drew these cards with the Gyspy deck:

He reacted negatively to seeing these, thinking that he was going to get a bad, upsetting decision from the Judge somehow. This flies in opposition to all the readings I have done.

I corrected him, very gently, to say that the Judge had other meanings besides literally being the person. This draw could represent the sadness he feels at the upset in our relationship from his judgemental attitude. When your judgemental, you hurt yourself the most!

He didn’t answer me, but I know he was considering my words.

Right afterwards, I drew these 3 cards with the Gypsy deck:

I inwardly smiled when I saw these, because I knew that the Widower was my husband (as shown in another post) feeling alone. It said to me that he, the Widower, would do something to try to put our relationship back on track and in a happier place. That was the message I got, but doubted it to be honest.

I went off to do errands after another row, and thought “boy! I got that wrong”- When I returned, the Widower was making an effort at being amiable, and invited me to break from the drudge and go see the movie ‘Star Trek’ 🙂  It’s been a heck of a long time since we’ve gone to the movies, so it was definitely an “unexpected joy” – and we did have a good time.

While I made dinner, he even surprised me with a bottle of my favorite chardonnay! this said tons, because he prefers Red 🙂 nor did we really have the funds to splurge, so he was definitely trying to make amends.

This morning, I drew:

I take these card to mean that there will be a major change (Death) in the loss of equilibrium and bonding in our relationship… I feel in this instance, that the Death card shows improvement over the prior Loss.

As an aside, although things aren’t back to normal yet, they are improving. He’s doing his best not to take his frustrations out on me….there’s a certain politeness and civility. I think he realizes that he went too far this time.

Men and women really are from different planets! or should I say, Tigers and Piggies in the Chinese Horoscope!

I would never dream of taking my frustrations out on another, it’s not in my make-up. Piggies are peace loving. Tigers are known as the terrible Tigers, with a rash temper- jumping in without thinking. They’re very successful usually, on many levels, but relationships are one of their hardest challenges. Tom Cruise and Angelina Jolie are famous tigers 🙂

I am really loving how much the language of cards from  different systems are speaking to me. I feel as though I’ve made a friend for life with these cards  ……:)

Really bad, sad day–and the Shustah cards and the Gypsy cards showed it in spades…

I’ve had a pretty crappy day (forgive me! but that’s the truth!) I drew 3 Pages of Shustah cards 2 nights ago, and contemplated them for a long while, but it wasn’t until this day unfolded that I understood their meaning; or of the 3 Gypsy cards that I drew this morning! Now that I get it, I will share what the cards were trying to say.

I remembered reading that the Red Fence, could mean that your guides and teachers hear you, and that your intuition is working big time, it guides you to listen to your inner wisdom. The second card, Gemini, could refer to  Mercury the messenger, and being ready for a message…or not being ready! I had received chills with these thoughts, and really thought I was on the right track; but I think sometimes there are multiple layers to the messages.

The Pale Horse, oft times signifies getting defensive, and rearing in fear and panic, as the horse is doing in the illustration. When one reacts out of their emotions and comes from fear, they aren’t able to think clearly and respond appropriately. It’s the flight or fight syndrome.

I originally thought that maybe just maybe, I was going to have a psychic/spiritual experience that I would end up being fearful of. That didn’t sit too well with me, as I have had many many encounters, and have not really ever been afraid…I welcome it! I ask for it!

Well, a more down to Earth way of reading these three cards is this:

The Red Fence can denote feeling separate from  someone, maybe someone that you love. It doesn’t necessarily have to mean being  physically separated. As you see in the illustration, they are near each other, and could actually talk to each other and reach out, but there’s a barrier between them for some reason. This is how I began to feel yesterday from my mate, sadly. We have just come together after a month apart, and after 4 days, the stress and the pressure finally upset the apple cart with my mate.

Gemini, the duality of Self; makes me think of Jekyll and Hyde. On the one hand, it said to me that I was seeing the “other”, darker side of my mate, and also the disagreement of  a couple as they turn in different directions from each other.

The Pale Horse, besides showing fear and defensiveness, which definitely reared it’s ugly head, also showed Anger. I see knee-jerk reactions that don’t help anyone.

This is exactly what happened! My husband let his frustration spill out, using an unlikely topic such as yard work be the catalyst, when it’s really about all the pressure we’re under. But his blow up was pointed directly at me, blaming me for outrageous things. Nonsense!

What it accomplished was hurting me deeply, just before the people came to haul away my 40 year old baby grand piano. I went outside and cried and cried, I hate to admit. I didn’t do so well letting go when the moment came 😦

It set up a separateness between us, and of turning our backs on each other. It continued today where words were said that triggered me into a full scale “Pale Horse“! Saying that I was finished with all of this- and that I wanted out once we recovered financially… something that I really don’t want, but it came blurting out anyway…sigh* I reared up as though there was a poisonous snake in front of me, (and I was driving at the time!!! not good)

So we’re in the same space, barely speaking, facing different ways as we deal with pressing matters.

I am not a happy camper!

Then there’s the matter of the 3 Gypsy cards that I drew this morning. I had a feeling of what they were saying, and sadly turned out to be right. They were:

Today we had to drive all over the place, to deposit the money from the piano into the bank, then to go over to another bank and pay the mortgage (!!) and other such stops for a good part of the day. You’d think it would have been a day of relief that we were able to make some of our commitments, right?

Instead, we were both the Widower and the Widow, feeling totally alone and unsupported; just like the Red Fence, separated even though we were together.

These cards were a literal translation of the days events – totally alone in the same car, as we drove all over creation. Very sad. Maybe the only bright spot, if you can call it that, is that the Widower and the Widow face each other….they don’t really want to feel and act that way. It almost looks as though the Widower is waiting for her to come over to him and take his hand! it hasn’t happened yet….I am way too angry for that….at least for now. (and it takes an awful lot for me to get angry!!!)

Hopefully tomorrow’s draws will be lighter.

A sad Spirity…..

Gypsy~ Desire – Constancy – Journey

I drew these cards this morning. My deepest desire at the moment is for security and stability again. This is reflected perfectly in the cards, Desire and Constancy. I long for things to get back to ‘normal’, to have a routine that I can count on.

The Journey card threw me for a little while, so I sat on this draw, contemplating it’s meaning. The Journey card can be translated literally, (and my husband is flying home today!) but it can also refer to the transformation of things, that changes are on the way; either of actual circumstances or of attitudes.

Madame Seaqueen writes that the Journey card can mean “quick delivery”, or “something is on it’s way”. This is what I was feeling, as I contemplated it in connection with the 2 other cards.

I have a strong desire for our situation to stabilize, and with the Journey card it is assuring me that it will very soon.