Gyspy draws-

It’s amazing to me that just when all seems to about to turn Golden, that all Hell breaks loose. Have you ever found that to be true?

I had been having fantastic readings showing all the positive changes, and then one day recently, I had a slew of pretty upsetting draws. I had a hunch that it had to do with a  blowout with my partner, but hoped I was wrong. Two of the Gypsy card draws are below to show an example, and what I learned about these cards.

and the other being:

I had entertained the thought that these were referring to my ex-husband. I have often thought that there is resentment and jealousy at how my life went forward after I split from him. I know that he is jealous of my mate. So with the brewing legal arguement coming over a 10 year old divorce settlement (!!) I thought that maybe I was going to get a doozy of a letter from him. But I was wrong in my assumptions.

The Widower wasn’t a man from my past, but rather my present mate stewing over some past ‘issues’.

Jealousy did indeed rear it’s ugly head, and it had to do with past hurts and resentments. So in the first draw, the Widower/Lover was all about him.

The Second draw also was about my husband, being angry over a past issue and writing me a not so nice letter to vent his frustrations!

Why is it that the not so nice readings come about so much more quickly than the hopeful/nice ones????? I’d say in my case, that that statement is about 95% true!

Thankfully, there have been some soothing drawings since 🙂 and the air has cleared. I’m ready for the golden draws now!

Kipper and Gypsy draws~

It’s been a strange ride 🙂 I wanted to share a few draws of both mine and my husband’s because they reflected so clearly the state of affairs!

Yesterday, from the Kipper, I drew these:

I can draw cards in front of my mate, and he’ll think it’s about something totally different! lol and I don’t correct him either.

Collect One’s Thoughts – False Deceptive Person – Love and Friendship

These cards immediately said to me that I would be thinking deeply about the untruths & uncharacteristic behavior surrounding my relationship right now. How to go forward, and to focus on what I really wanted for an outcome. It’s the way I did spend my day yesterday.

Husband drew these cards with the Gyspy deck:

He reacted negatively to seeing these, thinking that he was going to get a bad, upsetting decision from the Judge somehow. This flies in opposition to all the readings I have done.

I corrected him, very gently, to say that the Judge had other meanings besides literally being the person. This draw could represent the sadness he feels at the upset in our relationship from his judgemental attitude. When your judgemental, you hurt yourself the most!

He didn’t answer me, but I know he was considering my words.

Right afterwards, I drew these 3 cards with the Gypsy deck:

I inwardly smiled when I saw these, because I knew that the Widower was my husband (as shown in another post) feeling alone. It said to me that he, the Widower, would do something to try to put our relationship back on track and in a happier place. That was the message I got, but doubted it to be honest.

I went off to do errands after another row, and thought “boy! I got that wrong”- When I returned, the Widower was making an effort at being amiable, and invited me to break from the drudge and go see the movie ‘Star Trek’ 🙂  It’s been a heck of a long time since we’ve gone to the movies, so it was definitely an “unexpected joy” – and we did have a good time.

While I made dinner, he even surprised me with a bottle of my favorite chardonnay! this said tons, because he prefers Red 🙂 nor did we really have the funds to splurge, so he was definitely trying to make amends.

This morning, I drew:

I take these card to mean that there will be a major change (Death) in the loss of equilibrium and bonding in our relationship… I feel in this instance, that the Death card shows improvement over the prior Loss.

As an aside, although things aren’t back to normal yet, they are improving. He’s doing his best not to take his frustrations out on me….there’s a certain politeness and civility. I think he realizes that he went too far this time.

Men and women really are from different planets! or should I say, Tigers and Piggies in the Chinese Horoscope!

I would never dream of taking my frustrations out on another, it’s not in my make-up. Piggies are peace loving. Tigers are known as the terrible Tigers, with a rash temper- jumping in without thinking. They’re very successful usually, on many levels, but relationships are one of their hardest challenges. Tom Cruise and Angelina Jolie are famous tigers 🙂

I am really loving how much the language of cards from  different systems are speaking to me. I feel as though I’ve made a friend for life with these cards  ……:)

Really bad, sad day–and the Shustah cards and the Gypsy cards showed it in spades…

I’ve had a pretty crappy day (forgive me! but that’s the truth!) I drew 3 Pages of Shustah cards 2 nights ago, and contemplated them for a long while, but it wasn’t until this day unfolded that I understood their meaning; or of the 3 Gypsy cards that I drew this morning! Now that I get it, I will share what the cards were trying to say.

I remembered reading that the Red Fence, could mean that your guides and teachers hear you, and that your intuition is working big time, it guides you to listen to your inner wisdom. The second card, Gemini, could refer to  Mercury the messenger, and being ready for a message…or not being ready! I had received chills with these thoughts, and really thought I was on the right track; but I think sometimes there are multiple layers to the messages.

The Pale Horse, oft times signifies getting defensive, and rearing in fear and panic, as the horse is doing in the illustration. When one reacts out of their emotions and comes from fear, they aren’t able to think clearly and respond appropriately. It’s the flight or fight syndrome.

I originally thought that maybe just maybe, I was going to have a psychic/spiritual experience that I would end up being fearful of. That didn’t sit too well with me, as I have had many many encounters, and have not really ever been afraid…I welcome it! I ask for it!

Well, a more down to Earth way of reading these three cards is this:

The Red Fence can denote feeling separate from  someone, maybe someone that you love. It doesn’t necessarily have to mean being  physically separated. As you see in the illustration, they are near each other, and could actually talk to each other and reach out, but there’s a barrier between them for some reason. This is how I began to feel yesterday from my mate, sadly. We have just come together after a month apart, and after 4 days, the stress and the pressure finally upset the apple cart with my mate.

Gemini, the duality of Self; makes me think of Jekyll and Hyde. On the one hand, it said to me that I was seeing the “other”, darker side of my mate, and also the disagreement of  a couple as they turn in different directions from each other.

The Pale Horse, besides showing fear and defensiveness, which definitely reared it’s ugly head, also showed Anger. I see knee-jerk reactions that don’t help anyone.

This is exactly what happened! My husband let his frustration spill out, using an unlikely topic such as yard work be the catalyst, when it’s really about all the pressure we’re under. But his blow up was pointed directly at me, blaming me for outrageous things. Nonsense!

What it accomplished was hurting me deeply, just before the people came to haul away my 40 year old baby grand piano. I went outside and cried and cried, I hate to admit. I didn’t do so well letting go when the moment came 😦

It set up a separateness between us, and of turning our backs on each other. It continued today where words were said that triggered me into a full scale “Pale Horse“! Saying that I was finished with all of this- and that I wanted out once we recovered financially… something that I really don’t want, but it came blurting out anyway…sigh* I reared up as though there was a poisonous snake in front of me, (and I was driving at the time!!! not good)

So we’re in the same space, barely speaking, facing different ways as we deal with pressing matters.

I am not a happy camper!

Then there’s the matter of the 3 Gypsy cards that I drew this morning. I had a feeling of what they were saying, and sadly turned out to be right. They were:

Today we had to drive all over the place, to deposit the money from the piano into the bank, then to go over to another bank and pay the mortgage (!!) and other such stops for a good part of the day. You’d think it would have been a day of relief that we were able to make some of our commitments, right?

Instead, we were both the Widower and the Widow, feeling totally alone and unsupported; just like the Red Fence, separated even though we were together.

These cards were a literal translation of the days events – totally alone in the same car, as we drove all over creation. Very sad. Maybe the only bright spot, if you can call it that, is that the Widower and the Widow face each other….they don’t really want to feel and act that way. It almost looks as though the Widower is waiting for her to come over to him and take his hand! it hasn’t happened yet….I am way too angry for that….at least for now. (and it takes an awful lot for me to get angry!!!)

Hopefully tomorrow’s draws will be lighter.

A sad Spirity…..

Gypsy: Baby – Widower – Fortune

I looked at this draw for awhile, not quite sure, but then it clicked and told me a story.

Baby is the card of fresh starts, something new is brought into your life, new experiences,.

Widower had me stuck for a moment, as I don’t literally know any widowers at the moment! It’s the man standing on his own, having no one else to depend on but himself now. He is respectful of his past and has a deep bond. He is calm. He is alone & independent…… making his own way. Hhmmm, OK.

Fortune is fantastic to see! it’s the positive change in luck and fortune! There are bright abundant times ahead! there is a positive outcome to events, a turning of the tide …

I take this all to mean that there is something new coming into our lives, a new opportunity and offer, I’m not sure what! but I’m able to stand on my own two feet, not beholden to anyone else.

With the Fortune card following it, I get the words “financial independence” coming into my head. These cards are showing that something is coming that changes everything!   I bought a lottery ticket for tonight ! lol

Spirity

Gypsy cards: Widower – Jealousy – Lover

My lover/husband is far on the other side of the country (Canada); and will be for another 2 weeks. It hit me strongly when I drew these cards that he is feeling like the Widower, all alone, separate from his love…missing her.

He doesn’t do well for long periods apart (!)- I’m wondering if this is going to bring about another spell of upset with him. Sometimes he will act almost  jealous, as though I’m having fun without him somehow. It’s in feeling disconnected that anxiety &  frustration rises up in him. It’s happened before; it’s already happened on this trip! lol

The funny thing is, I’m NOT having any fun at all!! I’m stranded with almost no money, and creditors to deal with–not a barrel of laughs! But the thing is, I’m at home, that place that even in the most stressful of times, is our little oasis. I may just be making cookies with my daughter and having a brief laugh and that could trigger a sense of him missing everything.

I hope I’m wrong, but  it sounds like a good probability.